Eternity

 “ On her chest hangs a Crucifix

on her neck I place my lips
Her Eyes are black
Mine are red
Your sex it taste like sin
It does
I fill you with my rage and love
I found a church between your knees

You said you love me to death
You said it with your dying breath
(in your dying breath)
You said you love me to death
You said you love me to death
On the cemetery steps

Regret fills your eyes tonight
Rough sex
Kiss and bite
If It's wrong
Why does it feel so right
Underneath your sanctuary sheets
It's oh so cold deep down beneath
Filled with
lovers of the past

You said you love me to death
You said it with your dying breath
(in your dying breath)
You said you love me to death
You said you love me to death
On the cemetery steps”

As the song played my lover jay was kissing me sweetly and passionately!  He almost bit my neck as he was into that!  I just left it with a moan and let him have his way with me!  We usually play this song while making wild love and it is more than satisfying!

“Bite me all over,” I requested and he did just that make.   I swore as I moaned as he bite me in places I did not know existed!   He just bite gently not enough to draw blood but he would do it!   “You love me to death!”

“I know I do!”  He said.  I wanted to be with him for eternity!   Then he made a shocking  revelation……..

“Raven I used to be a Buddhist monk and a martial artist! I just stopped being that because I saw you from afar after I went goth!   It has filled me with  joy to be with you!

“I was a monk for about twenty years since I was twenty!  Now I am forty! You would being my lady love!”  He said.

I took him for 30 years old but never 40, but there it was, and I was just turning 20 in a few weeks!  Some people would saw that this is wrong!  But it felt so right!   But we were in love! And that was what mattered right! Yes. 

As I let him have his way with me he soon starts kissing me on the bossoms and suckling them!   I felt my juice spill as we did this! And I bit him on the neck, just enough to trigger a response from him!

“Jay…….” I said! “Love  me to death!

“God that was to good  that felt so good!”  I said!

Then we just layed there kissing and talking! In the candle light I was able ask him about what belt he was in martial arts!  

“5th Dan!” He said.   “I could teach you!”

“That sounds so hot!” And what martial art?!” I asked!

“Karate, and taekwondo!”

“It be nice if you did the Kama sutra  while to taught me!

The 40 year old mall goth was  smiling and said “that sounds so dirty!”

Still I wanted to be with him for eternity and fall in love with him so……. But the he said that he met me in a past life in Tibet and that he was a monk and I was no older then I was today and we fell in love!  I believed that and had a flash back of a world that was different to mine so long long ago!

* You said you love me to death*

Then we feel asleep finally as we were going to have nothing very much to do!  But to be with eachother!    Eternity was to start when I first laid eye on him!  I didn’t care that I was homeless or worse just so long as I loved him, he me!  I was happy!  For jay was my everything!

Nicki Sanada (Sensei’s goth part 2)

With our fingers interlaced we held hands and post loving making we decided upon our future. That we marry and start our own dojo!   When I agreed; Nicki smile gently with his lips and eyes!  I loved the spark in his eyes!  

“Kiss me!” I said I did not think he would want to forgive me! But then he kissed me sweetly and put his hand down my night shirt and started massaging my bossom!   All the way he kissed me sweetly!  I loved his gentle but deep kisses!

“I love you Raven!” He said.  “I don’t care what you did, I love you!”

Then he started to climb on me and started kissing me and he parted my legs and started thrusting into me!   Trying to kiss him was hard as he was thrusting into me!   

“So adorable you are!” I said.  “You might want to know my real name!”

“What is it beautiful!” He said taking my bossom in his mouth!

“Cynthia!”

That was when he became more firm and started kissing me will still inside me!   I took it he like my original name!   That was when he decided to do this!

“I know I don’t have a ring, but……” he said crying!   “Cythnia would you marry me!”

“I do!” I said!

He kissed me.  “I want to take you to an expensive sushi bar where everything is Tokyo prices!”

“That sounds romantic! I said.  

“I will get the ring for that night!” Nicki said!

“When will it be!” I said! 

“Tomorrow night,” he said!  Kissing me!

Just like that I let him again and I wanted to make love to him for a third time!   That was when I never heard of his father!     The next morning I asked him about his father!   

“He was a U.S. army general who abused my mom before she gave birth to me! She was a fem yakuza who was his lover.    That is all I know…..of him! 

“I know that my changed my sue name to her maiden name- sanada!  We were of the famed sanada clan! That tried to battle the Tokugawa in nagashino but we some how became yakuza!

“After I was born my mom became a Buddhist nun but still serviced men!”

All I thought I was that was a sad story! I could see a tear roll down his cheek, obviously it was to emotional a story to tell him!  That was going to be to a morning were he ended up being very quiet!   I wanted to know what traumas that he went through as I kid seeing that his mother was more of an object to these man!   I could imagine what he saw and heard!  

When he was able to calm down, Nicki was dressed traditionally Japanese!  He smiled at me  and took me to the sushi bar!  That was when he  asked the question with the ring! It was beautiful the whole thing was beautiful to me!  “Please be with me forever, “ he said.  

“I will!” I said! “ can we have a moment together”

“Oh Cynthia ilove you!”

When thing that you must know about him is that he was my friend before being my boyfriend and then my lover!

*will be a novel *

Sensei’ s goth

I remember that my  sensei was alway looking at me funny since I turned 20 years old.  He was an older man and he was attracted to me.  Talk about creepy!  But then he ended up calling me into his office for an after class talk and I found that odd!  What was I suppose to do as I was in love with my boyfriend who was also in karate class!     Nicki.  Nicki was gentle to me ……but he even found that strange that he would not be called in to the Sensei’s office! 

“I will wait for you out here,” he said.

“Thanks Nicki!” I kissed him and was in love with him.   He was a degree above my 2 degree black belt!  He was so beautiful, he was a Japanese American who looked more feminine than anything else!   He was in love with me!  “ love you Nicki!”

But I did not know what my sesnsei was going to do, nor talk about in the first place!   So I must up the courage to feel this what I thought was a dirty old man!  But that was what I was bracing myself for in the first place!  

“Raven!” He said.  “You look beautiful!”

“What?!” My worst fears coming to true I thought!   “Sorry but I am with Nicki!”

“Can you make love to me for the time being,” he asked.  “I find that you are a lovely creature and a skilled martial artist!”  

“Thank you!” I said hoping to leave!   But then he kissed me tenderly he must have been 39, 40 years old but he some who kissed me tenderly.    Then deeper!  

Wow was what I was think about in the first place!  But he then asked me if I had an interest in tantra!

“What the -“ I allmost yelled!  “Why me!”

“I just want to be in love for the first time in my life!”   He stripped me of my Gi and started kissing me on the neck, collar bone  as well as my bossoms!   He kissed he on the mouth again!  “So sweet!”

I felt for the first time a rush of pleasure, was I going to loss my virginity  to this 39 year old !   He was kissing me from my bossoms and the headed down to kissing me in my womanhood!

“Sensei!” I exclaimed as he was kissing my womanhood!  I never thought that I would be physically attracted to old man! But there was alway something!

As he was making love to me kissing the deepest part of me  it felt good and I wanted moan hottly!   Soon I was actually enjoying my self for the first time!    Soon I was moaning and screaming in pleasure!  “F**ck kiss me now!”

As he did I found that he was aroused too!   I could feel it!  The taste of desire on his breathe!  I wanted to  nothing more to have an affair- but how could I do this to Nicki!    I was certainly not going to lie about the consensual sex I had with I with our sensei!  

“Ummmm nicki,”   I was going to say! But he just said that he forgive me and still loved me no matter what! 

He was very loving, never thought of me as a an object and or something  to be just attracted to.  That next week our sensei was arrested and accused of having links to the Japanese Yakuza!   Just the thought of that made me recoil at the time we spent to together!

That same we I ended up living with Nicki!   When he first  made love to me he asked: “are you into tantra!”

“Yes I am”

Then the loving turned tantric!  The one thing his he could not spill his juices or it would not work!  But it felt good to be with Nicki!  As we made tantric love we kissed tenderly and the  soon kissed deeper!   I could tell that he was drinking coffee before I came!

He put his hand on my left site of my chest and held it there as if to say that he tenderly loved and cherished me!

Dear reader

 Dear reader!   

My name is Karma Ranpoche!   I am part tibetan, Sherpa and white as well as some Japanese!  I used to be a Buddhist nun more or less against my will as that is how they sometimes practice!  Is taking young kids and putting them in a monastic life!    When I was 20 I decided to break from that life and live a life of a (traumatized) normal person! As you probably know that I am a martial artist and a 4th degree black belt in karate and tae kwon do!  I was  also in love with my sensei as well as a yakuza before coming to Canada! I am 35 years old!   This tantric romance short stories and tantric erotica!  Some based on my life some not so much or is based on my past life!     I have had assorted pasta life thousands of years ago in Tibet and Mongolia!  That being said I was either the lover of a monk or a martial artist!   This bunch of epwriting as are 18+  as it is erotic in nature!

I don’t usually spill fictional parts of my love life put that is exactly what I am doing!   This is for adults only!  Feel free to explore your spirituality with me if it allows eroticism!  Other then that if your religion doesn’t allow nor your age allow you to read this find another blog (book) as this is what I am telling you is erotic but not to hard core!  

That being said 

I enjoy the tantric love stories and erotica

Thuk ju che : thank you

~karma